We try so hard to control things in our lives and I am a true control freak. Because of things that happened in my childhood I needed to control things. I would worry and worry about things that I could not control. I do give myself credit for being able to roll with the punches and keep going when things like job loss and illness caused big bumps in my road. God has seen me through each and everyone with His love and grace and miracles that could only have been through Him.
Now at 61, I found myself not knowing what to do, where to go, how I would manage; being disabled and on a limited income my choices were not looking really good unless I wanted to be dependent on government hand outs. Being the independent person that I am, that is repugnant and would never be something I would want to do. Not wanting to be a burden to my children who offered to help, I prayed and God opened a door that I feel is His perfect plan for my life at this time. My Aunt Pearl who I am named for is struggling with health issues and being alone much of the time. Her daughter and son-in-law both work and are working hard to get their house ready to sell so that they can get into a condo which they will move Aunt Pearl into with them in the future. Everyone was exhausted and overwhelmed with trying to provide the care that she needed and get all of their things done too. I have been there and done that with my mother and mother-in-law and it is not a good place. So with everyone in agreement I have moved down to FL to live with Aunt Pearl and help her manage her diet/health and home. It is such a wonderful feeling to know that I am helping such a special auntie and her family as well. It is a win/win/win for all of us.
I has been a challenging time to get rid of a large house full of stuff and figure out what to bring, what to put into storage and what my daughters wanted, but it feels so freeing to not have the burden of all those things any longer and as I have been unpacking I have looked at some of the things I brought and thought “what in the world did you bring that for” and have started a donation bag to get those things out of the way. The past month was been very difficult in many ways but was also filled with God moments that reminded me that He was there and was in control. So thankful for some friends and complete strangers that reached out and helped me with this overwhelming task.
I am getting settled into my new home with Aunt Pearl; we are figuring out our routine one day at a time and I hope to establish a more frequent posting schedule for the future but my first goal it to help AP get healthier and stronger. Aging is not for sissies for sure! I know that I will learn a lot that will help me be healthier as I research and we try new things.
Since I started this post on 8/12 Aunt Pearl’s health has declined and she became very sick. Unable to get her out for an appointment with her doctor I called 911 and had her taken to the hospital. After doing 3-4 tests the ER doc said “well everything looks fine and you can take her home now”…Well I said as I waved the list of 20 medications she was on and the 10 pages of Red Alert Medical Interactions at her “I am not taking her home!!” “Someone is going to take some responsibility for looking at these medications and the interactions and the fact that is has been sick for 3 months!” So they admitted her. We spent the entire day in a hallway in the ER and they finally got her into a room, and we are on our 5th day. Here primary doctor came that first evening and he listened and heard me regarding the medications, they are doing their best to keep her comfortable and monitoring her while I do my best to walk her through the painful steps of getting off of un-necessary medications. My goal is to help her manage several health issues like diabetes with diet alone, using medication only when absolutely necessary. This time is a huge wake up call for me to begin to take MUCH better care of myself as I can see me in this situation in 20 years if I am not careful.. The scripture that God placed is front of me is below…
Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Blessings to you, take care of your temple today!