Breaking free from the pain of the past, Iris, old glass textures
Daily devotional and a pic from Sat..dull and windy day so the iris was not as crisp as I would have liked; I added three layers of textures and then removed it from the front portion of the flower.
God is so good to me! Even when I am dull, dense and just don’t get it right.
The enemy has been trying to sift me as wheat again and I was crying in my frustration when I read a post by a friend in our online bible study..It was a quote by Beth Moore –
“God will never allow Satan to sift like wheat unless we have something that needs to be sifted. Sometimes things need to go before we can go where God needs us to go.”
I had lost my joy, I was constantly feeling empty, used and frustrated and that was because I took my eyes off of Him and looked at my circumstances instead; We have a clear example in Matthew 14:22-32, that in the storms we must keep our eyes on Him!
22 Then Jesus made his followers get into the boat. He told them to go ahead of him to the other side of the lake. Jesus stayed there to tell the people they could go home. 23 After he said good-bye to them, he went alone up into the hills to pray. It was late, and Jesus was there alone.24 By this time, the boat was already far away on the lake. The boat was having trouble because of the waves, and the wind was blowing against it.
25 Between three and six o’clock in the morning, Jesus’ followers were still in the boat. Jesus came to them. He was walking on the water.26 When the followers saw him walking on the water, they were afraid. They said, “It’s a ghost!” and cried out in fear.
27 But Jesus quickly spoke to them. He said, “Have courage! It is I! Don’t be afraid.”
28 Peter said, “Lord, if that is really you, then tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 Jesus said, “Come.”
And Peter left the boat and walked on the water to Jesus. 30 But when Peter saw the wind and the waves, he became afraid and began to sink. He shouted, “Lord, save me!”
31 Then Jesus reached out his hand and caught Peter. Jesus said, “Your faith is small. Why did you doubt?”
32 After Peter and Jesus were in the boat, the wind became calm. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped Jesus and said, “Truly you are the Son of God!”
Have you had storms where you kept your eyes on Him and did not sink? I have, and it amazes me that I don’t remember them at times like these. If we do not constantly seek his face we will sink beneath the waves of the current storm in our lives.
Have a blessed day and seek Him with you whole heart and He will be found!
Viewing life through the pain..pun intended. Life can be very pain filled, I have had more than my share. I blended two photos together; one taken of cars that are broken down, rusted and shot up and another of the beauty at St Marks Wildlife Refuge. As I was working on this I had some thoughts..
This is how we often view life when we are in pain..life is seen through the cloudy, full of cracks and holes window..on the other side is the beauty just waiting for us to move to a different view.
Our grieving process is often interrupted by other painful events and when we do not fully grieve them all our life is lived looking through the shattered, cloudy glass.
When difficulties and losses come your way, take them to the Father and throw them on Him.”Throw all your anxieties upon him, because he cares about you.” 1 Peter 5:7 CJB.
How can we do this? By taking the time that we absolutely must have to grieve, it has to be done; we want and need to do this to free ourselves to see life as beauty filled and not distorted by the cracks and dirt. Getting help is a good thing, a friend, pastor or counselor can help sort through all the emotions that disasters and pain bring into our lives. Looking back over the past dozen years, I see that I did not take time to grieve some really big losses, they were piling on so fast; it is clear that I have been looking through broken, shattered glass as I have walked through these past years, not grieving then, has caused even more pain in my life.
My first step has been in recognizing this and acknowledging that my view is not what I want, not only that, I know that it is not the view that God wants me to have. How can I love others if I am living in this pain? I can’t, I can try but everything that I do is colored by the cloudy, shattered glass.
My next step is prayer, asking the Lord to show me how to clear up my view and let go of the pain. I am going to list the things that I need to finish and/or start grieving in order to move past them and into the sunshine and beauty that God has for me. He does have a plan and I know that it is a good one; I do not want to delay even one more day in having a clear glass to view my life through.
I am also going to do this great Mixed Media Class “Good Grief” offered by my online friend Kathy Shaull on His-Kingdom Come, an online group that loves people, art, and the Lord! Come join us for loads of fun, faith and friendship!
If you have walked this road and have faith filled tips on how to get past the pain and see more clearly please share them with us.
Working very hard to get lots of images ready for the His Kingdom Come FaithArt Shoppe so that you will have yummy pictures to choose from to use in your artwork..I made myself stop today and work on an art piece based on our current “In His Image” theme/scriptures.
While shopping a few weeks ago with my aunt, we ran into Hobby Lobby to look at spring flowers for her window boxes. While there I peeked at the 90% off household goodies and found several wooden art pictures in three sizes for only $3.99; I grabbed a bunch and immediately thought about all the layering I could do on the firm surfaces. I have always been a little frustrated at the give on canvases when I am gluing down papers and other ephemera so I was excited to give these a try. Love it, and it is so much cheaper than the wood panels from the art supply aisle, especially the larger sizes!
Here is what I started with:
Boom Baby from HL for $3.00
Yes..Boom Baby turned into this…
Created in His Image Mixed Media on Wood Canvas
I started with two coats of gesso on this 8″x 8″ panel, then I used a paper towel to pounce on a carribbean blue, letting white and a few areas of the yellows of the original art show through. Next I used the Tim Holtz stencil with the rays and used pebeo iridescent dyno paints in pink, orange and yellow to make my rays, I then used a round Martha Stewart sponge and made circles with it and with the plastic tube that holds it. Old gift cards are great to spread paint onto another TH dots stencil to add some grungy black to three corners, then using the side of the card to draw sketchy lines all over.
Off to a good start, wheels a turnin
Lots of dots, lines and circles for Created in His Image
Drips and drops are a beautiful thing – Created in His Image – Creative
I did the circles and sketchy lines on the sides too! Started getting excited but still did not really know where I was going with this! (I started this over a week ago to do a beachy themed project with some of my shells and photos) I love how God can take us in a totally new direction if we are willing to go along with Him; that is how I wound up in FL taking care of my special Aunt Pearl!!
I watered down some white tube acrylic to a milky consistency, used a dropper and dripped it down the front and sides, I did this again but did not water down the paint quite as much. I love the different lines it made as it washed down. I laid the panel down and let it dry and came back later to do a bit more. I knew I wanted to use the “Vatican Angel” picture that I printed out on tracing paper; but, I learned while putting it down that the tissue paper would have been a better choice; it tissue paper goes down more smoothly , the tracing paper is firmer and holds bubbles which can be challenging to press out.
I took this photo while visiting the Vatican in 2005, right after Pope John Paul died; the lines were long and they hurried you through and would not allow flash photography, so I just took what I could get as we passed through. I converted it to a pencil sketch and printed on tracing paper, as I said though, tissue paper works much better!
Pious Pope’s Tomb..Created in His Image
Pious Pope’s Tomb Pencil version – Created in His Image
After the angel dried completely I used watercolor crayons on it in, red and yellow, black and white..(they are precious in His sight). I tried to give this angel a real mixture of colors, and while working, the scripture from Hebrews kept rolling through my mind.
“What is mere man, that you concern yourself with him? or the son of man, that you watch over him with such care? You made him a little lower than the angels.” Hebrews 6b-7a
I also knew that I wanted to use the Genesis 1:27 scripture from the Complete Jewish Bible, I use Biblegateway each morning for a daily devotional.
Now here is where it gets rather sticky, I used clear alpha stamps and some medical tape to create Created with. I put it on the canvas and then wrote in black the”in” and used larger stamps for HIS…well I was ok with my “in”, and I liked the HIS, but was not so sure about the tape Created. So, I sat down with my computer and typed everything out, worked out my spacing and printed it on tissue paper (praying the whole time it printed that it would not get stuck). It was too large! So I sized everything down and voile the next print was perfect. Tearing tissue is tedious…say that three times as fast as you can!
Made in his Image
Once I put down my tissue paper scripture and “image”, I was not happy at all with my medical tape “Created”; so, back to my computer. Brilliant, I LOVED the way the fonts were more cohesive! About that time I realized that my Hebrew scripture would not show up well printed on the tissue, but I did not want to cover the angel with opaque paper…so I put it on the bottom side, you know, the side that is on the bottom. Well, if I was going to have that on the bottom, then I needed some other tissue items on the other sides too, so I fished through my stash and found some things I liked.
Bottom Side, you know the side that is on the bottom! Created in His Image
Other side, not the bottom.. Created in His Image
The other, other side, the top, Created in His Image
Here is the tape “Created” and you will see what I meant..not cohesive at all!
Created in His Image Mixed Media by Pearl Brown Not Your Ordinary Art
SEE, don’t you agree?!! What was I thinking, so glad that the tape came off easily because I had not used gel medium on it yet!!! Thank you Lord!
Now, here is the finished one again so that you don’t have to page back up,
Created in His Image Mixed Media copyright Pearl Brown Not Your Ordinary Art
Now back to those yummy images for the HKC shoppe! You will LOVE them! I already have three more projects lined up using some of my beach scene photos! I have been doing photography for quite a few years now with the intent to paint from my photos, I am now converting lots of them to Sketchy and Pencil formats to share with others in the HKC FaithArt Shoppe, if I painted every day until I die I could never use all of my photos!
Trying my best to take care of my precious aunt and find time to do art and photography!
In His Grip
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Beach from St Andrew’s State Park, Panama City Beach FL, standing under the pier. Pencil version.
Beach from St Andrew’s State Park, Panama City Beach FL, standing under the pier. Sketchy version.
We try so hard to control things in our lives and I am a true control freak. Because of things that happened in my childhood I needed to control things. I would worry and worry about things that I could not control. I do give myself credit for being able to roll with the punches and keep going when things like job loss and illness caused big bumps in my road. God has seen me through each and everyone with His love and grace and miracles that could only have been through Him.
Now at 61, I found myself not knowing what to do, where to go, how I would manage; being disabled and on a limited income my choices were not looking really good unless I wanted to be dependent on government hand outs. Being the independent person that I am, that is repugnant and would never be something I would want to do. Not wanting to be a burden to my children who offered to help, I prayed and God opened a door that I feel is His perfect plan for my life at this time. My Aunt Pearl who I am named for is struggling with health issues and being alone much of the time. Her daughter and son-in-law both work and are working hard to get their house ready to sell so that they can get into a condo which they will move Aunt Pearl into with them in the future. Everyone was exhausted and overwhelmed with trying to provide the care that she needed and get all of their things done too. I have been there and done that with my mother and mother-in-law and it is not a good place. So with everyone in agreement I have moved down to FL to live with Aunt Pearl and help her manage her diet/health and home. It is such a wonderful feeling to know that I am helping such a special auntie and her family as well. It is a win/win/win for all of us.
I has been a challenging time to get rid of a large house full of stuff and figure out what to bring, what to put into storage and what my daughters wanted, but it feels so freeing to not have the burden of all those things any longer and as I have been unpacking I have looked at some of the things I brought and thought “what in the world did you bring that for” and have started a donation bag to get those things out of the way. The past month was been very difficult in many ways but was also filled with God moments that reminded me that He was there and was in control. So thankful for some friends and complete strangers that reached out and helped me with this overwhelming task.
I am getting settled into my new home with Aunt Pearl; we are figuring out our routine one day at a time and I hope to establish a more frequent posting schedule for the future but my first goal it to help AP get healthier and stronger. Aging is not for sissies for sure! I know that I will learn a lot that will help me be healthier as I research and we try new things.
Since I started this post on 8/12 Aunt Pearl’s health has declined and she became very sick. Unable to get her out for an appointment with her doctor I called 911 and had her taken to the hospital. After doing 3-4 tests the ER doc said “well everything looks fine and you can take her home now”…Well I said as I waved the list of 20 medications she was on and the 10 pages of Red Alert Medical Interactions at her “I am not taking her home!!” “Someone is going to take some responsibility for looking at these medications and the interactions and the fact that is has been sick for 3 months!” So they admitted her. We spent the entire day in a hallway in the ER and they finally got her into a room, and we are on our 5th day. Here primary doctor came that first evening and he listened and heard me regarding the medications, they are doing their best to keep her comfortable and monitoring her while I do my best to walk her through the painful steps of getting off of un-necessary medications. My goal is to help her manage several health issues like diabetes with diet alone, using medication only when absolutely necessary. This time is a huge wake up call for me to begin to take MUCH better care of myself as I can see me in this situation in 20 years if I am not careful.. The scripture that God placed is front of me is below…
Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
My Devo for today, July 5th 2015. I was reading in John and as I read John 4:26 I could hear the Lord saying to me (again) “I who speak to you am He, He who loves you and sacrificed for you, you are worth it..you the woman at the well” Living water so that I thirst no more. PTL
Was she coming at that hour to avoid other’s..perhaps…I know that I have done that to avoid some “Christians”, those who put on that “Sunday smile”; who speak with their mouth but not their heart. You know the ones..but what God says to my heart…look at your own heart and I will take care of theirs. Just sayin..I know how that Samaritan woman felt and I know how she felt after Jesus spoke to her. She left her water jar, something precious in that day and place; and went to tell the very people she was trying to avoid. When God does something in your heart, you get so excited, you HAVE to tell someone, no..everyone!
Jesus had a divine appointment with that woman, broken and unloved; He was bringing True Love to her and her community. Real Love. He as a divine appointment with you too, you can read all about it in His word.
I did some searching for what the well would have looked like then to use in my bible journal and I liked Rembrandt’s sketch, so this is what you get.
I who speak to you am He
Packing and moving is on my plate
I am packing to move, so it may be a while before I get my bible page done, I am trying to keep some art supplies organized so that I can do a few things but I find that I am too tired to work most of the time. I can do digital work lying down as I rest my back…so for now that is what I will do.
Welcome to a very exciting blog hop. Today HKC aka His Kingdom Come is celebrating the launch of a brand new Faithart stencil & mask line “Praise Him” designed by Diane Marra.
His Kingdom Come has created tools to draw you into God’s presence and lead you deeper into creative living. Faithart tools help us create art with the intention of connecting with God.
His Kingdom Come faithart tools help you exercise the artistic gifts God has bestowed upon each of us. These faithart tools allow you to work together with God to discover the creative, holy and abundant faithart He has placed upon your heart! Join His Kingdom Come in creative expressions of faith!
His Kingdom Come showcases faithart products designed by Christian artists who know and love God and are passionate about sharing their faithart! Our faithart product includes canvas ephemera, stamps, stencils/masks and Thermofax screens.
A team of talented HKC artists have come together to launch these exciting new stencils & masks. This blog hop is your chance to get to see how these artists have used them in their faithart.
It doesn’t matter where you start within the blog hop. Or you can start at the beginning at His Kingdom Come. Each blog has the complete list of participants.
As you visit each blog you will be given a letter eg. D. When you have collected all the letters they will make a word. When you have worked out the word email Bernice with the word. We will randomly choose 4 people who have the correct answer to win a free stencil of their choice. All entries must arrive by Noon (Pacific time) on Tuesday 23rd June.
The letter to collect from my blog is “P”
Here is how I used the “To God Be the Glory” stencil and mask to create a page to add to my Take Me Deeper Journal.
I started with a page of yummy Gelli printed goodness and used the “To God Be the Glory” masks..all three of them!!
I started off using StazOn black stamp and a foam applicator applying shadows/darkness around the praising figures…but it just wasn’t dark enough..so I went over the masks again with black paint.
The darkness in my life has been pretty black…while thinking about what I was trying to say with this I used the stencils to add gold paint (Golden Fluid iridescent gold)..YUMMY!
I did not cover each praiser (yes that is a new word) completely, I wanted to represent that we are not all “there” yet, the gold pouring down from above is going to all of them but the bright marks of color are the things of this world that can blind us and distract us from the Father who pours out His blessings to all of us. I also added a coat of clear glitter paint to give that shimmery look to the darkness since that is just want the enemy uses to deceive us.
I just love how God speaks to me when I am creating and listening to Him, this is part of my quiet time and I am so thankful for HKC creating tools for artful worship. This kind of artwork is new to me and I am relishing my time playing with new tools; worshiping and praising while I play.
We hope you are as excited as we are about this new product line from His Kingdom Come, an online creative community, a place where you can find encouragement, share your heart and receive prayer and inspiration!
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Prize winners will be announced on the His Kingdom Come Blog on Wednesday the 24th of June.